(Sign of the Apolcalypse #52 at The Reaction.)
We all have our fantasies, even our fantasy worlds, worlds that allow us to be true to ourselves, for good or bad, or neither. Put another way, we all have dreams, dreams about ourselves, ideal images of ourselves, self-constructs. Society requires one to be many things, to wear many masks, to play many roles, some fulfilling, some not, or not so much, but even the happiest person, even the most self-aware, finding happiness in genuine self-awareness, in knowing oneself, cannot but fall short of the ideal. (Even Socrates must have had his doubts and disappointments, and, yes, his fantasies.) And this is especially true, I think, in our age of the deification of the self, an age in which the self is celebrated, in which freedom reigns, in which individuals, in our more progressive societies, are able to “find” themselves in so many different ways, an age in which choice is supreme, an age in which choices can be made, and are made, for the greater glorification of the self.
Okay, enough of that.
My point is that freedom and choice do not necessarily make for happiness, and many people today are living lives that seem, in one way or another, meaningless, which is to say, devoid of meaning, even pointless. You get up, you commute, you sit in a cubicle, your boss yells at you, you play office politics, you count the seconds, you drink, you narcotize yourself. You’re stuck in a crappy job, a dead-end career, a broken family. You’re in debt, massive debt, and you worry about retirement, if you sober up enough to think about anything at all.
Yup, it’s pretty bleak out there, and wherever you are right now.
Quite probably, it’s pretty bleak in your soul, too.
So go ahead and fantasize. Go find yourself.
Just don’t hurt anyone.
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Which brings me to this: LARPing.
Do you know what that stands for? I didn’t, and I’d never even heard about it before I read this review of a documentary on LARPing by Grady Hendrix at Slate.
So what does it stand for? Well, here you go:
Darkon is a LARP (live-action role-playing game) where normal people dress up in homemade armor and pretend to be inhabitants of a fantasy realm. They fight battles in parks and on soccer fields over pretend land in a pretend country that has its own pretend religions and pretend economy. It’s meatspace Dungeons & Dragons, with people brandishing swords wrapped in foam and slamming each other around with padded shields. Founded in 1985, Darkon is one of America’s oldest and largest LARPs, and the showdown between two kingdoms within it, Mordom and Laconia, was captured in the documentary Darkon, a movie so mighty it needed two directors (Andrew Neel and Luke Meyer). The film… joins the ranks of movies like Hoop Dreams and Murderball as one of the great documentary dissections of how Americans play.
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